I took a small break due to major changes in my life; I got gently kicked out of my daytime job a week ago.
So the last 10 days were a rollercoaster of emotions and trying to stay focused on one task was not easy as I try to build up a new daytime routine; guilt strikes as I pass hours on photoshop, not knowing if I should just concentrate on submitting my work to as many open calls as possible or optimise my website or look for jobs… I am all over the place and had nothing to say about it.
Obviously, having more time to create art always seems to result in me making endless decisions and lost time of hours picking shitty outcomes or crazy colors - sometimes completely out of my pallet almost. I supposed my brain needed this. I was so preoccupied (and still am) with big life questions; like is this the occasion to try as much as I can to make a living with my art through Goldengen? What’s my career purpose? Do I still want to work in marketing? Imaginary hamsters spinning in my head. To top it off I was recently getting nothing by refusals to my open calls everyday, not very inspiring emails….
Bring it back! - I went back to my sewing//fashion designer hobby - I don't remember the last time I screen printed on fabric, but it was fun and no pressure. I'm trying to make a “Goldengen’s stylish” mask - It took me a few tries//redo, but I am close to something really fun - pictures coming on my Instagram. Hey we all need them now. Let’s do this.
I am also going to re-create my Etsy store - I definitely need more exposure and sales volume. Under the name Goldengen’s Treasure, the store will be a combination of existing prints (no on demand print) and parts on my vintage clothing and accessories collection.
So yeah, a busy week and probably month. I think I’ll use this time to reflect and focus my craft with time it takes for each part; and balance a new work schedule that works with where I am going as I evolve through this phase. My confidence will come around on these new changes because I want big growth, and that calls for big changes and they start with a steady mindset (yep, been listening to podcasts…)
Stay tuned, Geneviève